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Tried them.

Loved them.

The end.

Inspiration = poison

Here I am, with a full time job that pays a decent wage. I've gotten to move up in the company that I am at, but my true passions lay elsewhere.

I am missing my artist instinct ever since I've been working full time. No time for volunteering, no time for reading and as a result - no time for my art.

Being tired is what keeps dragging the soul down, further and further into a place where it is void.  A dark space where all the inspiration is drowned out, where there is no escape. There is hope, but getting out will take some significant effort. It is like swimming in a never ending ocean, where one can see the shore but the days and nights pass, and you aren't any closer.

I've seen my artist friends whom I went to school with doing these amazing pieces and it really inspires me to make more of my own art and post it. I know writing is one of the mediums I enjoy, however taking a brush or crayon or pencil to some heavy paper is the most satisfying feeling ever.

Looking at my fellow artists, the inspiration grows and I keep on staring, in awe.

What can I do that is that magnificent?

Will it have the same effect?

What will happen next?

I'll ask myself these questions, but after some careful thought, the inspiration goes away. Knowing that whatever I produce won't have the same effect on people as their work has on me. People will not pay attention and in the end I end up being disappointed in all the work I've ended up creating and in the end I end up destroying the pieces that brought me some happiness.

I am a failed artist. My artist block has been created and finding a way out is proven difficult.

However, I know I'll find a way out...there is always a way out if you look for it.

San Francisco Part 2: Lands End Lookout and Sutro Baths

Our second stop of the day was at Lands End Lookout and Sutro Baths. It's pretty cool, Sutro Baths use to be a public pool house that burned down in the 1960s and you can visit the ruins on the edge of the Pacific ocean today. It's part of the National Park system if you visit. Here are some shots from pur visit there:

The foundation of the building now in ruins

San Francisco Part 1: Fort Cronkhite and Rodeo Beach

My Husband and I had a day trip to San Francisco and we visited a few locations. The first location was Fort Cronkhite and Rodeo Beach. They have such a great view of the Pacific ocean, even on a cloudy day. I have to say I was very happy to see clouds, because in Marysville I barely see any. Also, even though it was chilly, it was nice, compared to the heat and humidity. Here are some photos of our visit.

The view of the Pacific and Rodeo Beach

The view of the Pacific, Rodeo Beach, Fort Cronkhite (The red roofed buildings) and Rodeo Lagoon

Some of the coastline that can be seen on the trails

More coastline and more of the Pacific

The view over one of the cliffs

The view from one of the cliffs facing inland

Rodeo Beach, the sand is nice and dark and didn't stick to the feet

Rodeo Lagoon

Ellis Lake -- Marysvile, CA

Now that I live in Marysville, California, this is the lake that is a few blocks away. It's called Ellis lake, there are a lot of water fowl about, such as geese and ducks and there are fish in the water such as catfish, trout and bass. I've also seen a turtle pop out it's head above the water occasionally, I have yet to snap a picture of it.

I think I've run out of things to do....

I don't know what to do anymore during the day when my Austin is at work. Sure I tidy up the apartment but that takes about 30 minutes tops and I also do the laundry, but other than that I have nothing to do. I've started to explore the surrounding area but there isn't that many interesting things to do or to see and it get very, very hot during the day. I'm happy that I actually have a gym membership, so I can go there and be around other people, but other than that I don't have a printing press or a job so my day comes to a standstill pretty much.

Yesterday, however, I finished this crayon piece that I started when I visited back in the beginning of July. It was a good way to spend the day, so in a way I am going to do more art until I find a decent job. I got a letter from one of my friends and it definitely brightened my otherwise dull day. Today I'm going to submit my paperwork to start volunteering at the library, another way to actually do something that can sort of, possibly, help me find a job, or until I actually find a job. 

Done in Crayola Crayons - http://verat.deviantart.com/#/d5bgojn

I don't know what I was expecting when I moved out here, but here it is, unemployed and currently a housewife, and in all sense of the word. I sit at home and don't see anyone. I really miss seeing my friends and most of the time am either updating my tumblr or looking for more job openings that sound interesting. I've also noticed how many print I have in my possession, most of which I should probably start selling, but one thing about that is I don't know who would me interested in purchasing. Going to start looking into Etsy.com to see how I can sell my art through there. 

Anyways, I usually end these things with a short story, but currently nothing comes to mind. Have a pleasant day/evening/night.

My trip broken down by my stops

Here is the quick breakdown of my trip in terms of stops, miles and time:

Day 1

#1 Denver, CO  ---> Laramie, WY

Distance ≈ 150 miles

Time ≈ 2.5 hrs

#2 Laramie, WY  ---> Green River, WY

Distance ≈ 225 miles

Time ≈ 3.5 hrs

#3 Green River, WY  ---> Salt Lake City, UT

Distance ≈ 175 miles

Time ≈ 3 hrs

Day 2 

#1 Salt Lake City, UT  ---> Wendover, UT

Distance ≈ 125 miles

Time ≈ 2 hrs

#2 Wendover, UT  ---> Elko, NV

Distance ≈ 115 miles

Time ≈ 2 hrs

#3 Elko, NV  ---> Lovelock, NV

Distance ≈ 200 miles

Time ≈ 3.25 hrs

#4 Lovelock, NV ---> Marysville, CA

Distance ≈ 225 miles

Time ≈ 4.25 hrs

TOTALS:

Distance ≈ 1, 215

Time ≈ 20.5 hrs

(The mileage is approximate and so is the time)