As you might have heard my computer has failed me in booting up properly and hence doesn't work (Currently borrowed my mums to type up homework and this short story). Will be posting my short stories probably during the day for now until I get a new computer. Watched Parent Trap today for the first time in a long time, and I've got to say Lindsay Lohan was quite talented. Still trying to figure out how to get the video I made of my computer failing off the camera. I know how to do it on my ex-computer, but not on my moms, especially since it sometimes doesn't want to do what I want to do.
Another downside is that all my homework was on that computer. Now have to redo some of it.
Have decided not to spend the $109+ on the Gorillaz World Tour, especially what has happen with my computer, need to save up right now.
Cut UPDATE! My horrible cut in my finger is still healing at an incredible rate and pretty soon will be completely gone. Will post a series of images of how it has healed. There will be a photo from each day. Kind of wish I took a photo of it when it was bleeding, but as one might understand -- Bleeding finger + Camera = BAD COMBINATION & BLOOD ALL OVER THE PLACE!
Plan on getting a MacBook Pro 15 inch screen, I think I am officially done with owning a PC. Too much trouble with them and time to explore new horizons.
There was a glitter in the eyes as if they where gazed over from looking at something so amazing, that it left you standing still forever. Your breathing still is regular while your heart beating wildly increasing your pulse. You come out of this trance when someone bumps into you, making you stumble forward. What you where looking at was the person you think you will spend the rest of your life, or just to find out if it's an illusion of some sort, that it's not possible to find someone so amazing who makes you stand in awe.
Too bad that you see them with someone else, holding hands, and whispering in one another ears as well as laughing at each others jokes. You wish you were that person, holding hands and giggling, like there is no tomorrow. That moment will stick in your head forever until you grow to hate that person, that you can't even bare being around them, that it gives you pain to just think or see or hear them.
You continue walking away know that will never happen to you. You use to believe in love at first sight, but now you have become skeptical about it. You've fallen for a trick that you got out of and now you don't know where your head is at because of the experience. You hate yourself for being such a fool for believing that you have found someone that you will be with forever, and yet you constantly hear all of these stories of these couples who have been together for the longest time. Well guess what, that's exactly what they are, stories, just like the one I'm typing up now.
You're puzzled how it comes so easily for some people to be with someone, while you yourself struggle with finding someone who you adore and care about. You wonder if it's how you look, your personality or things you do. You over analyze everything but come up with no answers, knowing nothing is wrong with you. Than you ask yourself "Why not me then?" Some people you just click with and you stay friend while others it never works out. You have your family and friends, but you want someone all to yourself. Too bad it will never happen no matter how hard you try.
You also realize that once you've found the person you want to be with, that they are just uninterested, have someone or could care less of it and your feelings you have about them. You might be friends or co-workers. You keep your feeling bottled up, only knowing that it will get worse with time as you put yourself through all this misery and pain. You cry at the fact that it will never work and that you will always feel rejected because of it. It doesn't matter how expensive or fashionable your clothes are, or what your job is, you will never get to be with the one person you care so much for and adore till the ends of the earth.
You know that you will then get out of this rut, but will always be stuck with knowing that you wasted your time crying over someone and thinking that you'll be together. You know you have failed and you only wish that you can go back and make sure that it never happened. you wish you never met them, and you wish that you didn't get to know them and admire them as you did.
What a waste, and before you know it you are old, and unhappy because of your entire life is empty except for those thoughts you had. Time isn't something you can turn back, too bad because I would have done it so long ago. So much for admiration.
THE END.
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